How is it almost November?

“Time will pass, will you?”

In an effort to get myself out of the mental valley I’m currently in, I decided to write a little. It seemed like the better option when compared to 1) staring at the ink marks on my pinky from writing with a pen that exploded or 2) staring at the blisters I got from sticking my hand in the -80C freezer repeatedly without a second barrier.

Frankly, the last couple of months are sorta blurred in my memory. Without going into too much detail, it’s been rough two months for a lot of people around here. There have been times where I literally couldn’t do anything (as opposed to feeling like not doing anything) because I couldn’t focus. For example, doing cell culture at most takes me a couple hours normally, but in the time frame I’m talking about it was taking me twice as long because I would just catch myself just staring into oblivion.

I do remember one day in August where I went to my advisor in the early afternoon asking to be excused for the rest of the day because I couldn’t focus anymore. On any normal day that explanation warrants a, “Quit being lazy and get back to work!” response. But instead I got a, “take care of yourself” and was allowed to go home. So yeah…it was that bad.

Course not being 100% hasn’t gone without any consequences. My work is backed up about two months which strongly correlates with the two months of semi-in-capacitance. I would say r^2 = 0.79 (close, but not quite directly correlated).

Do you ever have that feeling where you know you have so much to do that you’re struggling just getting started? That’s me right now.

Another thing I’ve learned being in grad school is the work distribution can rapidly fluctuate. There are days where I’m so busy that I just crash when I get home and then there are days where I sit at my desk and day dream about being home. lol. I try to be the most efficient with my time at work by planning. However, something will always come up. But you gotta at least try to plan ahead.

Otherwise, things are pretty chill here. That and the weather is cooler here too. hehehe I’m sorry I couldn’t help myself with the lame joke. I read the extended forecast and saw snow in it. Frankly, I was like “NOOOOOOOO! Not yet! Stay away.” I mean I’m still recovering from last winter which was unusually brutal (according to the natives here).

Below is a picture of me on top of Mt. Spokane (the last hike of summer).  Unfortunately, the state of Washington was on fire at the time so you really can’t see much of the scenery (but I did find Huckleberries.) 😀 So I did do something these last few months productive even if it may not feel like it.

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Speaking of productivity, I know I really should be doing other things besides this right now, so I’ll leave ya here. I’ll write a little more next post….when I’m in San Diego again!

-Sabrina

 

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Aren’t ya forgetin’ somthin’?

No, I haven’t lost my purse or my keys. In fact, I’ve never lost my purse or keys.

But I am guilty of being forgetful.

Last year I forgot my Mom’s birthday. This year I was dangerously close to forgetting my Dad’s birthday. If it wasn’t for my Mom giving me a heads up I would have forgotten about it completely.

The only date I didn’t miss is my sister’s birthday. I think it’s because she mentioned it several times leading up to it. But that’s the thing right? As kids, birthdays are pretty big deals. But as adults, sometimes we can dismiss our birthdays as being just another day, so we don’t mention it.

I feel awful. For one, these are people that I REALLY care about. And two, I love giving gifts! I’m like Lesile Knope in that I love giving well-thought personal gifts, and it can get out of hand and over the top sometimes. I get excited watching the recipient open my gift. It gives me great joy. But I can’t be happy if I don’t give any gifts because I forgot! 😦

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Honestly, I’m not this forgetful on important dates in my life. I think I just got swept up in studying that everything kinda took a backseat to it.

So as of now, I programmed every important day into my work calendar, and I’ve set a notification to go off a week before the event., and it doesn’t delete off my calendar once completed so it should be there forever. Let’s see how this will work…

Anyways,25

I turned 25 on Thursday. Now I can rent a car without that pesky minor tax! Woohoo!

To celebrate, I made a honey cake with citrus frosting. It took me waaaay longer to make than I anticipated but it was FANTASTIC! Every component worked so well with each other. Honestly, I’m pretty impressed with myself. lol.

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Honey cake with butter citrus frosting topped with candied oranges made by me.

Thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday. I’m so happy you guys are a part of my life.

Until next time, stay classy and sassy.

-Sabrina

Not Feeling It

Spongebob Squarepants is one of my favorite cartoons ever. I like to make references to it on a regular basis. One of my favorite episodes is when Mr. Krabs goes through a mid-life crisis. He decides to hang out with Spongebob and Patrick thinking that’ll make him feel youthful again.

Mr. Krabs mentions that he’s not, “feeling it” and so Spongebob and Patrick try to help him. They end up doing a ton of activities that Spongebob and Patrick find fun and ask Mr. Krabs if it’s making him feel any younger.

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I like asking people, “are you feeling it now, Mr. Krabs?” or simply “are you feeling it Mr. Krabs?” because I find it funny.  And if you ask me if I’m feeling it, I respond with, “I am/not feeling it, Mr. Krabs”

Frankly speaking I was not feeling it this week, Mr. Krabs.

Signs that I’m not feeling it:

  • Hard to get out of bed.
  • A lot of internal sighing.
  • Bothered by people.
  • And just generally kind of angry.

I could tell I wasn’t feeling it at work by how often I visited my collection of funny/cute animal pictures stored on my computer (mostly cat photos).

I think part of it is the weather. I’m done with winter. Particularly I’m done with the snow. I remember complaining about the weather last year where it snowed an inch almost everyday. This winter it was more of an all at once snow. Like it’ll be really bad for a couple days, then things to go back to normal again.

Today is one of the first days where the sun was out for the entire day. I know my CO pals are like, “Who cares, dude? The sun is always out.” Hear me out, I’m in the Pacific Northwest where it is indeed cloudier.

I’m not gonna lie, I was super excited to see the rays of light. It was almost an angelic moment. Kind of like when Spongebob descended from the ceiling of the Krusty Krab. Haha!

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The sun is out, halleujah!

I don’t think I’ve had Spring fever this badly ever.

And so my friends who also have terrible spring fever that’s effecting your mood, HANG IN THERE! There’s only 18 more days until March. WoooooOOOOooooo! In the meantime, keep popping those vitamin D supplements and eat an cutie (clementine) ever so often.

-Sabrina

Jan. 2017

I know I’m a little late, but happy new year!

I spent the holidays back home with the family. There’s something about stepping away from your work to reset your perspective, and there’s something about being with your family that’s recharging. I mean, I hadn’t been back in CO in over a year before leaving for break…so it was a welcomed change. But just to clarify, I did go other places in 2016 like San Diego and Seattle, so don’t think that I was literally stuck in lab.

And of course, I forced my dad and lil’ sis to take our annual skiing photo.

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“You are clearly related; the bottom halves of your faces are extremely similar.”-James

While I was doing some “facebook stalking,” I noticed a TON of new year themed posts. In a majority of the posts, people reflected on things they did in 2016. Particularly landmark events like a vacation, a new home, or a meaningful relationship which was usually accompanied by a collage of photos highlighting such events. After reflection, there is a statement of welcoming the new year generally in a optimistic tone. (There is no doubt I’m a scientist after writing that analysis.)

 

Frankly, I didn’t make a post like that because I was embarrassed. I asked myself, “what would I write? What would I say?” I found myself comparing my experiences with others as if my accomplishments aren’t as spectacular. They’re not as marvelous as someone’s dream vacation.

Let me tell you about a conversation that shaped how I viewed myself in 2016. It was with a lab colleague, about 6pm-ish after a loooooong day doing animal work. Here how it went:

“Anyone can own a house and start a family, but can everyone be a Phd?”

Me: “…uh I guess not.”

“Exactly”

That’s all it took to realize my life in itself as a student is one of a kind, and I shouldn’t be ashamed of it.

So without further delay,

Although I experienced growing pains, betrayal, grief, and loss in 2016, I had wonderful moments too. In 2016, I…

  • Passed my Preliminary Exams! I’m a Phd Candidate now.
  • Published my first rheumatology article.
  • Got a pay raise (I tithe 11% more now).
  • Moved into an apartment with an additional bedroom and a garage…
  • …because mein Shatz moved in with me. ❤
  • Learned several lab techniques like
    • Myography
    • Laser Capture Microdissection
    • and FACS
  • Got a gym membership and used it
  • Mentored an undergrad.
  • Got food poisoning.
  • Helped my lil’ sis pass English every Sunday.
  • and built a cat tree for Cinnamon.

And many other things that would overdo it.

I’m very excited for what 2017 has in store for me. It will probably include mentoring another undergrad, a car tuneup, and more skin care.

Be blessed, stay warm, and I’ll see you again soon!

-Sabrina

p.s. I also discovered the show Bob’s Burgers this year. I particularly like the episode where Tina tries to uncover the mole leaking out cookie orders. You know the Troop 257 chant? I think we should do something similar when we say 2017. Like, “pft-pft-pft-2-1-7!”

 

Dark Lipstick

Around the end of this summer, my YouTube binges included makeup tutorials. I saw a lot of dark lipsticks…like dark reds, blues, and purples. I really liked how they looked and I wanted them. So I went out and bought a smashbox matte lipstick in the shade Plum Role. But it was still summer…so I held off wearing it until the weather changed and it was more “acceptable” to be wearing dark shades.

The first time I wore it out all day was when I went to Seattle for the weekend. I justified it by 1) the weather and 2) no one would know that I usually don’t wear this color so it’s all good.

The second time I wore it was on another weekend where I was running errands and had there was a small probability of me running into anyone I knew.

Then came, literally, the perfect day to wear it except that it was on a weekday. I was kinda nervous to come to lab with dark lips. I was afraid of what people would say, but I did it. My friends liked the shade saying it made my skin tone look really good and that it looked cool.

After that, I bought another dark shade. This time it was a dark purple/blue and my first ever liquid lip shade: Jeffery Star liquid lip in the shade abused. Now that was crazy for me because it was outside my usual shade of lipsticks being in the pink and red family.

So I debuted it for Halloween again justifying wearing it by the holiday. Nothing happened.

A couple of weeks ago, I realized I cared too much about what people would think or say about my lipstick color for that day. But it doesn’t matter what they think. What matters is how it makes me feel. That’s really what makeup is about in the end for regular everyday people–it’s all about you. So one day I said, “eff it” and I wore the dark blue shade for the second time on the day before Thanksgiving. Why? Cause I wanted to.

That day just so happened to be the first time ever my boss/PI has ever seen me in a dark lipstick. You know what he said? He smiled, pointed to my lips, and said, “your lips match your sweater. Very cool.” And that was it! He didn’t say anything else to me about it. He just asked about my family and to incorporate the revisions to my manuscript.

And now I feel more empowered to wear the shades I want to.

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Shade: Abused. Jeffree Star Cosmetics

 

Featured Image: Taken by the Public Market on West Side (Seattle). Why this photo? I don’t know! 😀

TTYL!

-Sabrina

Monday

Happy Monday!

As you probably saw in the news, a typhoon off the coast of Japan made landfall in the Pacific Northwest this weekend bringing tons of rain and wind.To all my friends near the coast, I hope you guys are safe and sound. ^_^

Fortunately, I’m in the inland NW in-between the Cascades and the Rocky Mountains, so all I really saw was some wind Friday and a ton of rain Saturday afternoon. However, the energy company as well as Comcast sent out notifications that the power might be knocked out in our area and to prepare.

Despite advisory warnings, life still goes on. Friday afternoon I got my tires rotated and balanced. Saturday afternoon I got my hair cut. Just a clean up: 2 inches of the bottom, re-layered, and a bang trim. Because of the timing and length, I’ll be good for the holidays.

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Fresh faced and ready for seminar at the end of the month.

And in other news (which I already shared on Facebook) if you search, “S Fechtner 2016” PubMed my article pops up! Wooooooooooooo! My second one will be submitted later this month. 🙂 Also later this month is my annual college wide seminar about my research.

That is all for now, ttyl!

-Sabrina

 

 

Sore

Last month, I bought something I thought I wouldn’t need until I was “older.”

I got a gym membership.

I know, it’s nothing super crazy to most people. Let me elaborate.

Being a gymnast for a long time, I walked past all the exercise equipment and went straight to the gymnastics gym. Then after gymnastics, I started swimming. And once again I walked past all the exercise equipment and went straight to the pool. So yeah, I never extensively used exercise equipment (but I have used them once in a blue moon).

Alas, this summer I began to notice how difficult it was to carry things from the autoclave back to lab (which is across the hall) and how winded I got climbing the four flights of stairs. And that’s when I realized I was out of shape and realized it was time to join the herd and go to the gym with the overall goal being to get strong.

I will admit for the first week I was both excited and nervous going to the gym. I never really exercised in that kind of setting before. However I was excited to use all the equipment.

My gym workout is as follows: 15 minutes of cardio on the elliptical and 30-40 minutes of weight lifting on the equipment that I know how to use. Over the past couple weeks, I’ve tried out some new equipment which I learned how to use by studying the picture on the side or watching someone else use it effectively.

So now my new normal is “sore”. Constantly sore. All the time. Alternating between legs and arms being sore. Last week I attempted to use an ab machine without any additional weight added and I COULDN’T EVEN LIFT IT! My abs have been sore for four days since…

-_- weak. Does the soreness stop though?! I mean, eventually my body will get used to working out again right?

And eventually I’ll get ripped. ^_^

Hope everything is well with y’all. I’m pumped that it’s getting cooler here in Spokane so baking/cooking doesn’t just heat up the apartment on top of the outside heat making it unbearable in here. Instead, the place is comfy cozy and smells fan-freakin-tastic.

Ttyl! -Sabrina (gym member since late August 2016)

 

 

Status Update

Hey! Sorry it’s been awhile since I’ve last posted. I usually blank when it comes to posting on my blog because the things that happen at work (aka in lab) can be hard to explain without some sort of background knowledge on my research and/or the personality of my colleagues. For instance, my colleague has been calling everyone, “dude” this past week. Then for some reason, he switched over to calling one particular person, “dude vs. dude”. Why you may ask? Frankly, I don’t know.

This is the same colleague that out of boredom gave his banana a tattoo. Observe:

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It says, “Monkey Food. Monkey Food delicious”

I’m a PhD student. I do “science”.  And that’s basically it.

As a result, I finished writing my second manuscript and my first one is in the galley phase. For those of you who don’t know, the galley phase is the final proof before publication where they send you the copy before it’s released and  you approve  things like, “the surnames spelt correctly, the figures look good, the captions are correct”. I’m sooooo excited to type my name in PubMed and see my article pop open and be like, “you wanna know what I’ve been working on for the past two years?! This!”

And when I’m outside of school, I’m usually doing chores and cooking. Chores aren’t anything worth mentioning. And my cooking style is “cook seven portions of the same thing so I don’t have to cook during the week”. I realize that’s not how most people live their lives; I’m just lazy when I get home from work. lol. But I don’t mind cooking, if I wasn’t a scientist I think I would have been a chef.

I saw the Goo Goo Dolls for the 5th time and oh my goodness this time was awesome for three reasons: 1) it was their first night of their summer tour so they weren’t tired or bored 2) The seats I got were the closest seats I’ve ever gotten seeing them and 3) The two women in front of me were actually shorter than me so I could see! I had a ton of fun and it was a welcomed break from working.

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In high school, I had a HUGE crush on him. Still kinda do. 🙂

In other news, I imagine having a kid is like mentoring an undergraduate: in the beginning, you have to be with them all the time and eventually they’ll become independent.

I’m still waiting for mine to spread their tiny wings and fly. I attempted the bald eagle approach by telling him to do something by the end of the day without any hand-holding…aaaaaaand yeah, it was a mess. Two more weeks though, then it’s “byiiiiiiieeeee”.

Finally, I’ve been playing Pokemon Go since the day it was released and this Saturday I finally walked a total of 10km. lol. That’s not very impressive at all.

Honestly, I just want to play more Pokemon Go, Sims, and play with makeup…but I’m in lab. -_-

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#LabRats

Cooking Competition Bonanza!

For the fourth of July, I did what most Americans do at a normal frequency: I sat on the couch and watched TV for a few hours. Come on, don’t blame me for being lazy. It was my first day off in a loooooong time and fireworks are illegal in Spokane County (like in Boulder).

Personally, I like cooking competitions. I think it’s because people are put under pressure and yet they’re innovative and someone always prevails.

I also like non competition cooking shows like kitchen nightmares. I like 1) watching Gordon Ramsay rip someone a new one and 2) making something better.

Now over the last few years, I’ve watched a ton of shows. I’m not limited to just Food Network, I watch shows on Fox and Netflix too.

Anyways, yesterday something crazy happened…

While I was watching Cutthroat Kitchen (my latest cooking show obsession), a couple of the contestants seemed oddly familiar. Like I’ve seen their faces and heard their voices before.

Then I realized I have seen those people before, but in different shows!

This chick:

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Cutthroat kitchen intro thingy

Was also a contestant in the most recent season of Hell’s Kitchen (season 15).

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mmmm…fries

She did pretty well in Hell’s kitchen. She made it to the top 4 and didn’t get a spot in the finale.

And this chick:

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Was also on Kitchen Nightmares

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Don’t be fooled by her welcoming smile and display of food.

When she appeared on Kitchen Nightmares, her and her ex husband’s Cuban restaurant was failing apart until Gordon Ramsay came in a saved it. I’m pretty sure it’s still open right now.

I want to point out these people have now appeared on two different channels. Cutthroat Kitchen is on Food Network and Ramasy’s shows are on Fox.

When I made this connection I realized I watch a TON of cooking shows. I should probably stop.

Well, I’ll stop eventually. For now, I’m going to watch some more Cutthroat Kitchen. ^_^

-Sabrina

Burnt Eggs

After this Friday, I will have worked 19 days in a row ( with emphasis on the “the in a row”).  Why? Well, Monday-Friday is the regular work week. However I’m also part of an 6-week animal study which requires administering supplements every day. The past two weekends were my work shifts.

Besides working more than two weeks straight, within the work week I’ve put in a solid 50 hours of work (yup, basically five 10-hour days and then some on the weekends).

At this point I’m…well…burnt out. 😛

Granted at any other job 1) I would have been eligible for some serious overtime or 2) I would gotten the next two weeks off. But because I’m a PhD student, I’m not eligible for those benefits. In fact, it’s pretty much expected I put this amount of effort in. Honestly, it wouldn’t be that bad except for how I’ve noticed how I’ve been affected by it.

How two weeks of work effects me:

1. No amount of caffeine would help the exhaustion.

2. I’m a bit more irritable especially in the evening.

3. I’ve ignored taking care of myself.

Out of these three, the last one is the more disturbing one to me because it is not just a physical thing but a mental one too. This past week, my mind has felt frazzled.

So this week I learned of the the importance of meditation.

I’m not talking about sitting down in one spot and repeating a mantra until zen is reached. In fact, when I meditate I’m still working and hustling about.

Rather I meditate on the good things.

I think about all the past victories I’ve had and remind myself of how blessed I am. I remind myself of my growth as a person and how much better I am now because of it.

I’ve found this mindset refreshes me mentally. I feel more energized and ready to take on what’s ahead. Although I’m exhausted, I know I’m going to get through this season and I’ll be better off because of it.

Physically, I’ve noticed I haven’t been eating too well (which may contribute to my lethargy) and I’ve skipped out on pore strips and face masks for like a month.

Not to mention I haven’t cut my hair in the past six months.

Granted the hair cut can wait a little for “back to school” to cut off the summer damage.But after doing some beauty stuff today, I’m feeling much better about myself.

Now to have some good food: red beans and rice and tiramisu! ^_^

-Sabrina